Daddy Away

Could not go back
I try every day
The blindness devours me
Brings me down into its grave
Holds me there
Cold and alone
The terror of my choices
Screaming the dread
In my bones
Turning cold
Could not go back
To escape the numb
To pain instead
Just fo feel
Something again
I'm missing your life
Your thoughts
You're becoming what
I didn't realize you've
Always been
Person
Little man
Could not go back
I would not wish
This fate
This aweful state
On your precious shoulders
These confining walls
This confining
State of mind
Hope and dread
In silence
Bring me to my knees
Grasping for you
If but only
For a better fate
The cleaning
Of this slate